“You’re getting along better than anyone I’ve ever seen in my office.”
That was what the lawyer told us when we were filing our dissolution
paperwork. It remains something that I hold close to my heart, even if I do
wish I would have said in that moment, “That is what the marriage counselor
told us too.”
(That’s a true statement and not just a joke.)
My friendship with Nick remains the thing that I am most
proud of, even if it’s hard won and sometimes awkward.
I wish you wouldn't wait for me, but you always do
Accepting this friendship as it is, as it has become, has been at once the easiest and also the hardest thing that I have ever done.
But it's important- the boundaries erected have been needed and necessary, and sometimes it has hurt putting them up, and sometimes I have wondered what it would have felt like to burn it all to the ground.
I accept whole heartedly that the path that I have taken hasn't always been the one that was the most advisable, but it was the only one that I could find that didn't end with a whole lot of anger.
Today that is all that I have to offer this space.
